Yup, I am no longer a one-man-per-lifetime woman.

The change is kind of nice, though S. is highly upset. We broke up again ages ago (yeah, sorry for the lack of update, lol) and I guess I misunderstood why. I thought he said he didn't love me anymore, but now he's saying that's not the case and he's doing everything he can to get me back. It breaks my heart to see him so sad because I will always love him, but it's too late to stop this relationship from going forward and I do want to give this new guy a chance.

New guy (let's call him N.) is cool, older than me by like three years. It makes me feel like I don't have to be the responsible one in the relationship anymore. Sure, I never really was responsible to begin with and S. was great at taking care of me, but it's just different now. N. is also in the US Air Force, works as an accountant. I'm a sucker for mushy cliches... I can't resist a man in uniform.

And the sex is too awesome for words.

So, your turn. Tell me all about your love life.

She thinks about a lot of things, but the thoughts that most occupy her mind are her little stalkers. Really, how many now? 4? 5? She doesn't know who to include. It's like every man on the planet has a crush on her.

And maybe she welcomes that sort of attention. Maybe. Or maybe she has no choice. It's really not her fault she doesn't know how to act as something other than charming. And it's really not her fault she was graced with acceptable looks and passable intelligence, enough to carry on a smart-ish conversation.

"Trust me," they all say. Trust me with your past, your present, your future. You've done some terrible thing? That's okay. The blood is rushing to a body part other than my head, so you can trust me. I won't tell anyone. We're friends. You have a complicated love life, with emotional baggage piled up so high you can't see over the top? Oh well. I'll be your personal baggage handler, I swear. But only if I can have a kiss or two next time.

And it's not like she doesn't use or even abuse them. She knows they'd take everything they could, given the opportunity. Instead she just presents them with the opportunity to give, and boy do they give. Drinks? Dinner? A movie or two or three? The answers to the homework? That cute little dress? Maybe an entire shopping trip? Why not? It's an investment, that's what one of them says.

And the lover who claims not to love her, the one she's most interested in but recently has been getting sick of, well he claims not to want to lose her. He wants her but doesn't want her at the same time. It's the power trip, since she'd do anything for him.

And while he's sitting there saying he can't lose her, the others are saying, I don't have you... "yet." You're not interested... "yet." I'm fine with our friendship... "for now." I promise not to kiss you... "for now." As if she hasn't heard it all before, moments ago even, from a different one. That now will last forever, she tells them all. She says they're better off not trying, because they'll never succeed.

But men are stubborn, and when they want something, they'll stick to getting it. Oh no, they're not like women, who will do anything in their power to get what they want. No, men are a little less devious and anyway a lot less clever. But they will stick to a goal like crazy glue. Until they eventually get bored, because really their attention spans are not so long. Yes, tonight he and he and he will be thinking of her, but tomorrow? There's always another amazing girl.

And yet there's always another puppy dog guy, who will see the beautiful face and the intelligent eyes and say, "Trust me, because you can," because he thinks it's the best way into her heart and then into her pants.

Oh, hasn't she heard it before.

Okay so I have like 400+ messages and I'm deleting them all, so if you had something vitally important to tell me within the past two or so months, message me again.

Don't know how I still manage to have like 500 footprints in the past week when I haven't done anything for so long, nice though.

Let's go over my life, since everyone seems to be interested: this summer I went to Namibia. It was a life-changing experience. Being in a third-world country that by all appearances looks first-world when you're in the wealthy parts of the city (I was in Windhoek), and then when you go to the ghetto there's people living in "houses" half the size of my bed right now made of those wavy sheets of tin... Yeah. It's different than seeing it on the discovery channel when you see it in person. The animals there were cool though. I'll post pics eventually. Haven't even gotten them off my phone yet, so yeah.

I got back to Houston (yay, I can finally say I live in Houston now! How exciting is that?) on basically the day before school started again, and it's just been three weeks of non-stop work and seeing my old friends and making new ones, haha.

Grad school is tough stuff. I have to read like 500 pages of material a week, and I only have three classes (that's a full-time schedule too). It's tons of fun too though. Also, I'm so peeved about the fact that I went to Canada for college now. The same paper I would've probably gotten a B- on in Canada (which meant a 70 number grade there) I got a 90 on here. GRADING SO BOOOOSTED. Lol.

One of my classes is a stats class. I love it. We get to do crosstabs. Remember when I did that sex questionnaire thing? It's like that sort of thing again, except I get to use a better program (SPSS) to do stuff, yay.

I like playing League of Legends every so often. It's fun. If you play it message me and I'll give you my IGN.

Okay, that's about it from me.

What's new with y'all??